The Human Aspect of My Walk

By the time The Human Aspect of My Walk began forming, YAHUAH had already taught me so much about governance.

Through the Palal series, He had taught me alignment, endurance, refinement, responsibility, heart governance, and quiet authority.

Then came Walk the Governed Life.

That collection confronted me with the practical question:

If YAHUAH governs my heart, what does that look like when I actually get up and live?

I was learning that truth is not fully understood until it becomes a walk. That walking reveals relationship, direction, consistency, trust, and continual agreement—not through one extraordinary moment, but through thousands of ordinary steps.

But there was another part of the walk I still needed to understand.

I was still human.

I could understand governance and still feel afraid.

I could trust YAHUAH and still experience disappointment.

I could desire obedience and still feel the pull of old reactions.

I could know what was right and still feel anxiety.

I could be walking forward while memories, insecurities, pressures, wounds, and former ways of thinking continued speaking behind me.

That realization became the doorway into The Human Aspect of My Walk.

For a time, I think I unconsciously imagined that becoming more governed would eventually mean becoming less affected.

Less emotional.

Less vulnerable.

Less aware of pressure.

As though spiritual maturity would somehow remove the human response altogether.

But YAHUAH was teaching me something more honest.

Being governed does not mean I stop being human.

It means my humanity no longer gets to become my ruler.

Fear can be felt without becoming my authority.

Anxiety can arise without becoming my direction.

Disappointment can hurt without being allowed to determine my character.

A past wound can still be remembered without being given permission to write my future.

An emotion can be acknowledged without becoming a command.

And circumstances can surround me without becoming the source from which I understand who I am.

That is where the statement at the center of this album came from:

What surrounds me does not define me—what I follow does.

That line became the visual and spiritual center of the collection. The world of the album placed fear, anxiety, stress, failure, old ways, past wounds, selfish desires, pride, insecurity, and control behind the walk—not because those things had never existed, but because they were no longer being allowed to determine its direction.

And ahead was something different.

Not merely an easier life.

A different Source of direction.

YAHUAH over all.

Walking like Yahusha.

That distinction mattered deeply to me.

I was not learning to follow myself into some improved version of myself.

I was learning to follow YAHUAH.

And Yahusha showed me what that walk looks like in human form.

He experienced pressure.

He was misunderstood.

He encountered rejection.

He experienced exhaustion, opposition, grief, expectations, and people constantly pulling upon Him.

Yet what surrounded Him did not determine Him.

He continually moved according to the Father.

That became increasingly important to me because Teach Me to Walk Like Yahusha Walked had never really been about imitation as performance. Its purpose was to observe Yahusha's posture, Source, obedience, character, and way of moving, then allow the Word to examine where my own walk agreed or resisted what I was seeing.

So The Human Aspect of My Walk became another layer of that same lesson.

Can I walk like Yahusha while experiencing the very real pressures of being human?

Not by pretending they do not exist.

Not by calling every emotion evil.

Not by becoming detached from reality.

But by refusing to give those things the throne.

That is why 1 Kapa 1:14 became such an important Scripture for this collection:

“Be children of obedience, and do not be shaped by the selfish desires that used to influence you when you were ignorant.”

The word that struck me in that passage was the idea of being shaped.

Because something is always attempting to shape the human life.

What I fear can shape me.

What hurt me can shape me.

What I desire can shape me.

What I experienced growing up can shape me.

Culture can shape me.

Other people's opinions can shape me.

Old survival patterns can shape me.

Even my own interpretation of myself can shape me.

But the invitation of obedience is different.

I do not have to continue being shaped by what once influenced me.

That does not mean pretending the old influence never existed.

It means I am no longer obligated to remain its product.

YAHUAH can correct the shape.

He can teach my responses another way.

He can show me how to carry emotion without being governed by emotion.

How to acknowledge fear while still choosing trust.

How to recognize an old pattern without returning to it.

How to experience hurt without allowing hurt to determine how I treat another person.

How to live through uncertainty without making control my refuge.

How to remain human while becoming obedient.

And I began realizing that perhaps this was one of the most beautiful parts of walking with YAHUAH.

He was not asking me to become some artificial spiritual person who never feels anything.

He was teaching the actual person I am how to live beneath His authority.

My personality.

My history.

My emotions.

My fears.

My hopes.

My limitations.

My relationships.

My responsibilities.

All of it could come with me.

But all of it had to learn its proper place beneath YAHUAH.

The human aspect was not something that needed to be erased.

It needed to be governed.

That changed the way I understood transformation.

Transformation was not YAHUAH turning me into someone incapable of being affected by life.

It was YAHUAH changing what I did with what affected me.

Would fear become obedience to fear?

Or would fear become an opportunity to trust?

Would anger determine my response?

Or would I bring anger beneath His character before I spoke?

Would disappointment produce bitterness?

Or would it expose something within me that needed His attention?

Would uncertainty make me seize control?

Or would it remind me again that I was never meant to become my own source?

This is where the governed walk became deeply personal.

Because eventually the question stopped being:

“Do I understand what YAHUAH requires?”

and became:

“What will I follow when several things inside me are speaking at once?”

That is the human aspect of the walk.

And that is why this album is not simply about struggle.

It is also about restoration.

Its seventeen songs became songs of realness and restoration—music that reflected the journey rather than pretending the journey did not exist. The album world came to describe its themes as worship that reflects the journey, Scripture that corrects, teaches and renews, truth that shapes my response, and YAHUAH over all while walking like Yahusha.

Because Scripture was becoming more than something I used to identify what was wrong.

It was reshaping how I responded.

And this is where I began seeing another important distinction:

My circumstances can explain something about what I am experiencing without having the authority to tell me who I am.

I may be under pressure.

That does not make pressure my source.

I may experience fear.

That does not make fear my ruler.

I may carry a history.

That does not mean my history gets the final word.

I may still have human weakness.

That does not mean I must return to self-rule.

What surrounds me may influence what I feel.

But what I follow determines where I walk.

The Human Aspect of My Walk became the testimony of learning to walk with YAHUAH honestly.

Not hiding the human experience.

Not worshiping the human experience.

Not being ashamed of the human experience.

But continually bringing it beneath His authority.

To allow YAHUAH to tell me what is true.

To let His character shape my response.

To let His Word correct what old influences once taught me.

And to continue walking like Yahusha—toward the Father, beneath the Father's authority, trusting the Father's direction.

Because perhaps maturity is not reaching a place where nothing affects me.

Perhaps maturity is reaching the place where what affects me no longer automatically governs me.

I can feel and remain.

I can hurt and remain.

I can question and remain.

I can become tired and remain.

I can be human—

and still follow YAHUAH.

That is The Human Aspect of My Walk.

Not the story of leaving my humanity behind.

The story of learning what my humanity looks like when it no longer has to govern itself.

What surrounds me does not define me.

What I follow does.